Blog Woes

Posting on here because it seems to be the easiest method of blogging these days. Also Twitter, my addiction for the past few years, seems to be having a problem. Oh noes, I am forced to actually write my thoughts in a format that accepts more than just 240 characters per entry! I may spontaneously combust!

I have actually been trying to blog on my Real Site. So I set up a Wordpress blog, because that's what the hosting service prefers (though they do offer other programs). But I find Wordpress to be exhausting to use for some reason. It's easy to use, that's not the problem. It's just exhausting. Too many choices, maybe?

I also made a site on Neocities, which I have promptly abandoned. I don't know if I'm still into that sort of thing, website building from scratch. My real problem is I don't seem to be able to think of things to write about. Well, I do, until I am confronted with the blank page. Then all my thoughts vanish.

I felt this writing urge die well before I got into Twitter seriously. It was mostly that the blogs I followed and interacted were right-leaning and going more and more into the tedious drain-circling they still exhibit today. (Bet I could go look at one and still find someone howling about the Muslim's "Moon God" and the "Lie-berals". Not that the Other Side is any better. Today's treat was "those Proud Boys in their leather gear look gay, hurr hurr hurr." I sometimes feel like there's nothing left of the internet but a pig sty.)

I am trying to write fiction, but again, there's the issue of ideas and words vanishing when I open one of my increasing number of blank notebooks. I've started a process of giving/throwing them away, but it's difficult--it feels like such a waste, but all they are doing is collecting dust. Sometimes I think getting rid of everything and starting over will be the best thing for me. But I don't know if I can do it.